I Need To Start Blogging Again

Okay, so I have a myspace account and have tried to blog on there but I really can't be myself. I actually know a good 90% or so of the individuals on there and if they really read what I wanted to blog about or what I really was feeling or thinking they would either commit me, disown me or flat out pretend I never existed. I wish I could be honest on there but it will never be. So, I am depressed, yet again. I love my girlfriend but we are getting into a rut and I am sick of being the bread winner. I have let her work from home for over a year and a half and she just keeps bringing in less and less money every month and she isn't even cleaning the house. I have been refusing to do some of the cleaning to show her what she is or should I say, isn't doing. But, she still isn't doing anything about it. If I am depressed then she becomes depressed, I am sick of not being able to have my own feelings without her then adopting them or thinking they are her fault moments, hours later. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! She is way too codependent. If she doesn't start being her own person, picking herself up off the ground, then I can guarantee there is going to be no hope for this relationship. She is 9 years my senior but she might has well be 20 years my junior. She is acting like a child and it is infuriating me. If I wanted a child I would have had one with my ex. She needs to start acting her age, get a job like an adult or I will have to call everything off...this is the last straw.